APPEARANCE
[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[ ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[x] I have a tattoo.
[ ] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[x] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100 safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

FAMILY
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[x] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

EMBARRASSMENT
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[ ] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[x] I've had my trousers rip in public.

RELATIONSHIPS
[x] I'm single
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[x] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.

SEXUALITY
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[x] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

HONESTY
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.

BAD TIMES
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I regularly drink.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm upset.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[ ] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[ ] I'm addicted to self harm.
[ ] I've woken up crying.

Please be safe, everyone, and watch out for yourselves. Even if this isn't true, it's a good reminder that we need to be careful on here. Sometimes the internet seems too cozy when freaky people are on it. We forget these things. I know I do.

Apparently this person has a new ID: Onlystockings
Do not let him contact you!


Original Journal entry from -
"THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT! PLEASE READ! THIS INVOLVES YOUR SAFETY ON DA

Spirit here! My friend: had this up and I thought it was very important to have this so PLEASE!! Read and repost this!! =]I'm trying to help you guys and my friend!

I am begging you to read this, there is an online stalker (Jere1234,Caeruleum,Kyakuchuu, all the same person) who recently attacked a dear friend of mine. DA has resolved the situation, but this situation is something people need to be cautious and aware of. He has been blocked but theres always a chance that he'll make another account. Im going to post what's in her journal and if you notice any patterns of similarity, please contact DA IMMEDIATELY. This guy has gone thorough great lengths to contact my friend such as making new accounts and pretending to be other people who he's not. If you would, PLEASE copy this entire message and let other DA members know about this threat. the more people know, the better chance users have of not becomming a victim. So please,read, copy and post this again so this information can spread and no one else gets hurt. There is safety in numbers and this sort of thing needs to be stopped!

Read on to see whats in her journal and if you have any questions, contact her here . She'd would be more than happy to answer any questions you may have so this can be prevented. Please let this word spread."

:iconkaysellebell: 's Journal from this morning-

"I am begging you to read this, it will explain the last journal and also warn so this won't happen to YOU.

Jere1234 IS
Caeruleum IS
Kyakuchuu.

This man is most likely a serial killer or sexual predator of some sort. Deviant art staff is handling this for me right now. The man originally added me as Jere1234 and then he notified me that he would be switching to Caeruleum. He asked that I add him. Thinking he was just some nice man who liked my artwork I said "Sure, why not?" On this account he began writing some poems about and TO my girlfriend Kayla, and I. I began to find this odd but being an overly naive and trusting person I was polite about it, commented the poems, thanked him, so on. He wrote a poem about a lifestyle choice that I thought he spent alot of time critisizing for being different than his own and I believe I posted a comment as simple as "Gosh, what have you got against that, anyhow?" The man literally flipped out. He not only wrote two journal entries condemning me and calling me things between immature and evil, but he also sent me notes telling me how "disappointed" he was with me. A man that I don't know in real life, have only talked to online for a few days, is "disappointed with me." He blocked me, and I blocked him back.

Not long after I began to get several favorites and then a watch from the account Kyakuchuu. I noticed the similar style of poetry and similar interests but I hate people who make assumptions and I'd rather not be one of them, so I just figured it was another poet with similar interests. "Kyakuchuu" soon after began calling Kayla and I "muses" and writing poems about us as well. 2KL he called them-- and informed me that this meant "To Kayla and Ellie" There is a numerous list of them in his gallery. He favorited absolutely every work of mine with Kayla in it along side of me and also any of my pictures that showed my feet. (foot fetishist, obsessive personality: bad sign) He wrote me notes telling of his extensive admiration for Kayla and I, his plans for other poems about us, thanking me for being his "inspiration". All of this seemed very creepy, but I was always thinking, what if this is really just some eccentric old man minding his own business, and he just hasn't got anything better to do. I would hate to just hurt some innocent old man by lashing out at him for no reason. HOWEVER upon talking to Kayla about this, she has taken criminal justice classes. She said that many of these traits sounded like BAD traits and BAD signs. She told me about a type of serial killer called "collecters" Who will collect information, pictures, anything about their subjects, and obsess over them, for a long time before they make any move. She told me that alot of the time these men will be too smart for their own good and seem kind of innocent but mostly very mysterious. I have never let on in this site where I live as far as I know, all of my friends sites that are nearbye me say they live in different places (luxembourg, Canada, UK, anywhere...) and I was afraid that the longer I spoke to him and tried to be polite because I wasn't sure, the longer I had to slip up somehow and for him to figure out where I live if this was truly his intent.

Well hopefully DA will do something about this, no more little girls need to be preyed upon from the comfort of their own homes. I am not a stupid girl, just too niave. Now that I started investigating it further I have found that this is DEFINITELY the same man, seeing as his first site has some of the same poems that are placed on the second site, and the second site has NUMEROUS poems that are placed on the site he is using now, Kyakuchuu. Some under a different name, but nonetheless, the same poems. That in itself should be grounds enough for being banned from the website. That's more than harrassment, that's online stalking.

IF THIS MAN CONTACTS YOU DO NOT SPEAK TO HIM
please I am begging you, complain to DA so they will do something about this. I don't want anybody else to get hurt over the internet.

EDITED TO SAY:
Regardless of what was or wasn't said or how nice I was to this man as he claims, I was under the impression that he was a different man from the original man, so I had no reason to be unkind to him until I knew. Secondly, I blocked his second acount and he created a third in order to continue speaking to me without informing me of who he was, which is textbook HARASSMENT. I blocked him, he created another account. That is harrassment. period the end, and what I filed it under was: Harrassment. So there you go. Not to mention he called me "obviously an adult" When he knows I am only a teenager. Smart man."


- After this my friend recieved a message from DA saying that the situation had been resolved. This man has been banned from DA, but please be wary since he could always create some other account.

Please be careful out there you guys.

So that's it, please be careful all of you. I just don't want to see anyone get hurt or anything like that.

EDIT: One last quick thing before I forget. Everyone, be sure to copy and paste this message into your journals. That way, we can get the word out. Thank you again for your time."

RAAAAAWR!

Well. I suppose I'm back. Sort of.

I will attempt to further my artistic ventures, once more. I'll try to draw more often, and thus, update as well. My skills have deteriorated enough already, and so I hope to stop the decay and maybe improve.

Hoorah!

My life is busy, I'm emo and depressed, among other things. Over-worked. Stressed. Single. Fan-fucking-tastic. Let's see what I crank out? Pfft.

Since I last submitted any art. Here you go, four new images, Ive been meaning to upload for a while, but just now got around to it.

Leave me comments!

Well.... my last update was in October of last year. Now it's April of this year. That's 6 months! Time for another, methinks. Yesh, indeedly.

I painted my nails today. Hooray! I have the hands of a harlot! Egads! A nice, dark, sexylicious red. Mhm-mhm.

Uhm, I'm in an art class. My life is looking up. I got a job today. I go in for training on monday. I got a new bank account and applied for a credit card (At old Navy, lol. Babysteps.) I'm excited. I kind of feel like I'm really growing up. Going on ten months with my boyfriend. I'm in college, getting my highschool diploma. Going to have a steadier income. Enough money to get gas when I need it, take my car in for repairs, get a new wardrobe (Slowly accumulating... Getting rid of the icky things from middle school, and freshman year.)

I think the art class is really helping. I'd like to scan up some of the stuff that I've done, but it's on 18x24 paper. Aka HUGE! We'll see at the end of the term. I might take some of my favourite drawings to Kinko's.

Aaand. I've decided that I will ride my bike EVERY DAY after school. And a little bit on the weekends so I don't regress.

Uhm. I guess that's it. Hooray life?

Hooray life!

Oh yeah! And I'm makin friends

Go see She's in my art class, yessums.